Friday, October 06, 2006

Freedom


People are bound by many things. To outsiders looking in, the subject of imprisonment can seem mundane but to whom the shackles bind, torture itself. It can be alcohol, sex, lies, abuse, or even something as silly to some as shopping.

For me, i am bound by a number of things but this blog is about gaining my freedom from one of them. I found myself imprisoned by a person. Interesting. How it all began? I dont remember exactly but i woke up one day and realised that i was living and breathing this person. My life wasnt complete without an aspect of this person in it. I realised it was a problem when i almost stopped breathing at the thought of this person sharing confidences with anyone else.

My vacation came at exactly the right time. The time away allowed me to breathe and voila...I got back and came in contact with this person and nothing. I felt nothing untoward. Just a feeling of freedom. Even talk of other people sharing time and confidences meant nothing.

How did i get here? I think its simple really...I just made the decision to release and let this person go. You know when your mind tells you that something is unhealthy and not good for you? I listened to my head and rationalised and weighed pros and cons. And the time away helped as well.

And here i am. Free. Free to breathe and investigate sharing myself with others. Free. I am so at peace with this that i honestly believe that when the time comes for me to confront this person, i will be fine.

Freedom, Liberation...its all good. All i know at this moment, while typing these words, is that i feel good, light, smiling to myself and my heart is free to investigate possibilities....

I am free........

7 comments:

diamond said...

hmmm...uzo you're on a roll o. i dont know y u didnt seek permission from me before you took an extended vacation...anyways...i'll be back to continue reading

LondonBuki said...

Well Done you!

I have been in this situation, with the same person, a few times... It's wrong and I must admit... I thought I was free and then I relaxed and I found myself back to square one. Then it happened again... and again! LOL!!!

Good Luck Babes.

I am proud to say I am FREE like you :-)

Here's to FREEDOM!!!

Have a beautiful weekend.

Uzo said...

@ Diamond: Sorry ma for not taking your permission. But i am back now....

@LB: I will drink to that. Infact to celebrate my freedom, i will have a galss of some alcoholic cocktail. Which is a big deal for me since i dont drink. Have a great weekend and regards to your mom. I am truly hoping not to have any relapses. But i really really feel over this person. So great.

diamond said...

and (i wanna be like you)...WHO is dis pesin?????????????

zaiprincesa said...

..Cheers to freedom oh!..I can so relate though..Ive been there.(i blogged about it about a week ago).sometimes i feel like im still chained...and it has taken me a long time to realize, u are who you are..and no one else. I dont know if that makes sense to anyone else but me..But im glad u've found air, and broken free..Have a blessed weekend!

Onya Baquebeich said...

Hmmm... i like this one... sounds like u were smiling as you clicked away. happiness is good

In my head and around me said...

Envious of your strength...ko easy!