Tuesday, January 30, 2007
From my heart
Ever since i started blogging, i have "met" some pretty amazing people but this post is dedicated to one in particular. This woman is absolutely amazing. She is smart and beautiful - i have never "seen" her but i have if that makes sense. I have gotten a peek at the person that she is and she blows me away with her words time after time. I can say that i respect her - she seems to be able to grab the world by the balls and still be her. She has sent me a present just because i mentioned interest in this. Without meeting me. She just did. Its uncanny how she can read my mind over and over.
Anyway, she has made me fall deeply, intensely in love with a man. Sure i had heard about him many times but i had never heard anything from him. Then she sent me a few words and this file and now i am a mess:
Robin Thicke - Superman
I am so good at compartmentalizing. See, i havent been very interested in matters of the heart lately. Just not bothered. So i have concentrated on work and family and stuff and just not given in to the voice of Luther (so unusual) or to the many love stories around me. Even the 2 weddings i am helping out with are not giving me butterflies. I am simply helping.
Then i hear this song and i start to cry. The words of this song are just amazingly beautiful. Wow amazing. The strings in the song first tugged at the corners of my heart and then i heard the voice and the words and i just started to bawl. A little hard to explain the tears at work but all of a sudden its yearning galore. Its all about me wanting and wanting and wanting because i deserve, deserve, deserve to have my own Superman. Not playthings for my amusement but my own Superman.
Do i say thank you to her or yell a loud screw you to her for making me feel like this? Not sure yet. LOL. But i like the way i am feeling right now. Not so hard and jaded. Will it last? Not sure about that either but a little chink in the armour is not a bad thing right?
So here's to you my sweet Soul - thank you