Thursday, August 30, 2007

Just Stuff




Work is moving at blazing speed. The year is almost over and its almost time to take stock again. Of achievements, failures, progress made and all that. I do that. I think its important - well for me anyway since i am slightly obsessive compulsive.


So a few things are on my mind:


  • What is Yar'Adua up to? He suspends the new naira policy, suspends the education reforms, scraps NNPC etc. Hmmm....

  • Our beloved Speaker of the House who approved a couple of hundred million naira for house renovations...She is a hair dresser. LOL...So i think the way forward is to get a government appointment and do my thing. Shucks!

  • If i have one body - ie one face, 10 fingernails, ten toenails etc, why on earth do i have soooooo many products - cleaners, soaps, nail polishes etc? Wasteful perhaps? But i dont have them, i feel odd...

  • What on earth is the point of life? Yes i ask this now and again but like really. You do all these things. Make all these choices, push and push, quarrel and makeup, love and lose and all for what. It just seems to all be a bloody waste of time and space. Cos really, some human beings are just taking up space cos i cannot understand what earth they are existing for

  • So what do you do when you are bored with your own life? Its the same thing. I wake up in the morning at a ridiculous hour. I pray. Pretty much the same prayer in different ways afterall nothing really changes. Thank God, ask for protection and guidance, thank God and praise him and emm maybe specific needs... Anyway pray. Turn on my tv for 10 minutes of CNN. Get into the shower. Get out and continue whatever is in the DVD player. Same lotion, same order of moisturizing (from my feet up). All fragrances in a specific order. Today - a Victoria Secret body splash. Tomorrow - perfume. Get dressed in the work constraints. Get into the car, turn on the music and drive the same long route to the office. Get to work and work. Get into the car - maybe hangout with the same people, or if its someone new - same old conversation about who u are, and what u like while dotting my i's and crossing my t's. Then i go home. Say hey to the folks. Catch up with my brother. Go to my room, continue with whatever is in the DVD player, send text messages or call the same old people (and i love you all but still), read a few pages of whatever i am reading, read my bible and sleep. Weekends are just random but its the same damn thing. I am so bored with my life

  • I feel a restlessness in my soul and i dont know what its about. Do i want to leave the country for a while - maybe find some obscure course and ship off to South America for 6 months. Do i want to move into an apartment of my own and fill my time decorating? Do i want to take up a new hobby - say cross stitching (LOL - imagine me doing that), do i want to stop working? What on earth is it...I am itching but for what?

  • I now realise that i can be very very anti-social. Frankly, i dont like people very much..LOL

  • I truly believe that unless one finds peace within oneself, there cant be space to share one's life with anyone. And no i dont restrict this to romantic love. I just dont see how an unfulfilled, insecure and maybe unhappy person can bring joy to anyone else....

Back to the same old thing i go.....Much Love!


11 comments:

Jaycee said...

Firsttt??? Yippeeee...(that's if u don't have that approval thingy)

So...when u said, "I FEEL A RESTLESSNESS IN MY SOUL..." I stopped for a second. There's something u need to find, anyone that feels a restlessness always ends up finding somn special.And right now I am praying that u find that special thing that puts a stop to that restlessness. One major thing for me that put an end to a major type of restlessness in my life was coming to have a relationship with God. Not religion, but a relationship (not just knowing about Him, but experiencing Him).

But then, u know the only way to achieve success on different levels is to feel a new level of restlessness each time before u climb to the next rudder in the ladder...(food for thought)...(at every step u climb, a new restlessness comes...after achieving that height, a new thirst and restlessness shd arise again...it's just the path of an overcomer and acheiver...it's quite normal for warriors!)

The question of why women use so many products in PRICELESS...

A joy-less person can't bring joy to another...true that!!!

I speak JOY into ur life...
MUAH!!!!
Cheers!!!!

My 2 cents said...

We are alike in so many ways..

geisha said...

life is monotonous.. the sun comes up and goes down the same way everyday... ... ...
'I truly believe that unless one finds peace within oneself, there cant be space to share one's life with anyone' - tru speak.

it's a phase.. you'll snap out of this restlessness eventually :)

laspapi said...

I'm not always happy, uzo, but I try to do only the things that give me satisfaction.
Is that contentment?

disgodkidd said...

i ditto jaycee.

Anonymous said...

laspapi go away, you are full of it.

akin aworan said...

"Why women use so many products?" Now, i'm going to have to blog about that!! You should see the pile of crap (That's right: C-R-A-P) that she say's she uses and rarely does!

As Jaycee mentions, success comes on different levels. Unfortunately in this day and age, success is gauged by how much materialistic stuff we have. I beg to differ. Sun Tzu would say, "Remember: There is no universal principle in winning a war!" That's what I believe as well. A success that will always stay with me for life was learning how to swim at 27! How many black people do we know who would venture into water??? :_)

I'd love to comment more, but got to dash to work!!

Chxta said...

Why the melancholy?

SET said...

LOL AT SOME PEOPLE ARE OCCUPYING SPACE HER. SOMETIMES YOU WISH SOME OF THEM NEVER EXISTED. I AM BEING TOLERANT.

Calabar Gal said...

Why u have so many products? U r a girly girl thats why of course. LOL!!

Overwhelmed Naija Babe said...

I feel this sometimes.. this restlessness...